what a month almost two since the last post. ugh.

New news. Wait that is an weird comment in itself. old news would be an oxymoron.

last mri showed exponential growth of the GBM in hubby's head. no more treatments available as the growth is diffuse and ALL over the left hemisphere now, filling the screen with a white cloud where the brain is. HOLY CRAP. But wait there is more! the little corpus callosum? where the joining of both hemispheres of the brain connect? yep, right there, well it has lights too. hey and over there on the right side, yeah over there BIG patches of diffuse color. Oh no........... the cancer crossed mid line and now what~! Last ditch effort to save a brain and the person who goes with it. Hmm that was all on July 11. So new round of chemo and thalidomide also. My head spun- THALIDOMIDE? ISN'T THAT THE STUFF THAT CAUSED NASTY BIRTH DEFECTS IN THOSE INNOCENT BABIES? WHY WOULD YOU GIVE THAT TO A PERSON FOR ANYTHING?!?!?!  So the oncologist explained, hubby said go for it! 2 days later after chemo and starting Thalomid he has a major seizure and then we can't rouse him, so hi ho hi ho off to the ER we go. 6 days later we are back home. He seems fine, just rotten coordination and no use of his right side. It takes just 4 more days before GBM grabs a hold and tears my husband away from us again. Now hospice has been called. So no more full code resuscitation's. No more life saving measures. Just comfort and the peace in passing on, away.


He was ready to go on Wednesday. Then he rallied, now limbo man. My brain is all mush from all of this.
It is early and I had zero in the sleep department.

Time for a nap and it is barely 8 o'clock. scratch that. Hubs is coughing up phlegm. Off to nursing 101.

peace and love world, peace and love