Funny how a month slides by before you even know it.
like a breeze in the wind, so many people lose their health, gain new perspectives, and others move on.
Curious about men. one week so loving and attentive, and the next you wonder if they even notice you. still curious. talking leads to hurt feelings, misunderstandings and finally drama. For once I can say it wasn't me! i feel like a tool, but at this point of the game of life,the adventure is wearing thin.
I love this person, but have to remember that I cannot change them, at all. isn't happiness about change? from a single entity cruising through, and then meting someone who makes two better?
Enough.
My eldest son is really enjoying rotations in medical school. I miss him. I miss family. When did we become so self absorbed that traditions are thrown to the wayside for loneliness? Where did Sunday dinner go? Checking in on any given day to say hello, how are you? I dread Christmas and the quickly approaching holidays.
How I wish I could turn back time. Impossible. Brain is being seriously effected by medication. Still alone in this bed. Funny how people return to type, even when they say they've grown. Maybe it is me who has refused to move forward.
Time for goodnight and sweet dreams.
Peace love and joy.
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