The point of this is that my life has given me another lesson to learn.
About a year ago I met this guy. OMG I was in heat! I've never had those feelings, never. I wanted to invade his personal space because I was so enamored! So I hired him to work on Nana's house just to be close to him. The magnetic attractions just about crushed me. There was no reciprocity in feelings, but just being near him was enough. Yup, I'm in the dark. Well there was a falling out of our friendship. I figured out that I just would be better without the temptation than with it.
okay, makes sense. I cruised along, and didn't forget him, I just chose to ignore the feelings. He is 11 years younger than me!
Uh oh, October rolls around, and guess who calls me. The boy toy. I heard may I borrow five dollars for gas. Oh sucker I am, I gave him 10. He kept popping in to say hey, how are you? I let him. It was nice to have the attention. So as life happens, we cross paths again in the beginning of December. His living arrangements have dumped him on the street. I know, what the hell am I thinking? But inside my head I know if the table was turned, he'd help me. He moves his stuff in, as well as his dog and himself. Charity never fails; it is stated in the Bible, so I have to follow.
Did I mention I'm here in the dark? Typing on my smartphone? So many typos to edit. He sleeps on the couch for a week, and then I invited him to sleep in my bed. STUPID. STUPID. STUPID. Remember I am really attracted to him? Okay, he's in my bed. More time passes, and um yeah, you're thinking OHH NO SHE DIDN'T. Yeah, after a 12 year marriage that didn't have the physical side. I jumped his bones. He's been sleeping in my bed ever since. The physical untouched lonely sideways me was thrilled with someone to snuggle up with.
More to follow, too dark.
okay, makes sense. I cruised along, and didn't forget him, I just chose to ignore the feelings. He is 11 years younger than me!
Uh oh, October rolls around, and guess who calls me. The boy toy. I heard may I borrow five dollars for gas. Oh sucker I am, I gave him 10. He kept popping in to say hey, how are you? I let him. It was nice to have the attention. So as life happens, we cross paths again in the beginning of December. His living arrangements have dumped him on the street. I know, what the hell am I thinking? But inside my head I know if the table was turned, he'd help me. He moves his stuff in, as well as his dog and himself. Charity never fails; it is stated in the Bible, so I have to follow.
Did I mention I'm here in the dark? Typing on my smartphone? So many typos to edit. He sleeps on the couch for a week, and then I invited him to sleep in my bed. STUPID. STUPID. STUPID. Remember I am really attracted to him? Okay, he's in my bed. More time passes, and um yeah, you're thinking OHH NO SHE DIDN'T. Yeah, after a 12 year marriage that didn't have the physical side. I jumped his bones. He's been sleeping in my bed ever since. The physical untouched lonely sideways me was thrilled with someone to snuggle up with.
More to follow, too dark.
